Love's Misery

Who ever said that when you fall in love, you will always be happy?

No.

To a certain degree yes there’s happiness, joy and peace. But all the same, to a certain degree, misery.

When he came into my life, I was certain I’ve known him before. He was so familiar.

That’s why I didn’t ask questions. I just went with what life’s bringing me – an old time story. I thought it was forgotten, long gone with the tides of time. Drown away to oblivion never to return.

But I was wrong.

For he came along again with that long lost past. He carried with him the scrolls of time as his evidence. He is the agent. He is my life’s teacher for now.

And he is so shrewd to have appeared in a false pretense. He misted my vision. He used love.

No I refuse to accept that he came in false pretense.

And he never misted my vision. Because I saw him as he is. I saw his flaws and his bests. I have accepted him. There was no doubt about it.

But love was used. I was a prey. To learn a lesson. To move on to a higher evolution.

And though loving him gives me so much misery, I will not sway. I will let time pass us by and will hold on to my belief that everything will fall properly into place. When this time comes, I would have learned my lessons, he would have done his purpose and so we will move on to a new phase, together. Together, yes, I really hope and pray upon the heavens, together.

And so thank you again, Niyebo for coming into my life. You are my unconscious teacher. I promise you I will pass this test because you are a great teacher. And when my graduation day comes, I want you to be there. To share with me the happiness after all the trials and tests. And most of all, to continue one life together.